Focus on the Good, but first, deal with the Ugly

So Steve and I are facing a dilemma.  Apparently there is some law in Rhode Island, that he will not be able to file for a federal extension.  His original 26 week benefit ends the first week of January.  As of January first, "If you are in the original 26 week period, you are not eligible for federal extension aid."  I find that very ironic since Rhode Island is ranked 3rd highest in the nation for unemployment. There are NO jobs. 

That being said, it's going to be a very light Christmas this year.  I doubt he and I will be able to exchange gifts with each other and maybe even family.  Probably won't be able to host our Christmas eve gathering for friends.  We may even have to back out of a wedding that we both are in because I don't know if we will be able to afford the dress and Tux.  Ugh, I hate money!

I always have to be the strength, the power, the survivalist.  It's hard.  I don't get hugs from people or even all that much support.  I get "you'll get through it", or, "you're tough, you can handle it".  Sometimes I need a hug, sometimes I just need to cry.

Nevermind all this baby garb to top it off!  If stress can cause infertility, then looks like I'm never gonna have a bun in the oven.  ~Sigh~

Just taking things one day at a time...cause thats all we can do.

Thanks for letting me vent!