I didn't want to admit that I have something wrong with me. I try to be a support beam for the people around me. I'm strong both physically and mentally and I felt I had to continue this facade, and not lead anyone to believe that there was anything wrong with me. Until now...
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN...I'M CURRENTLY INFERTILE!!
I'm out of the infertile closet as my fellow blogging "infertile-ites" know. But I want other women to reach out to those of us who are going through it, or have gone through it! I know it may be hard, but talk about it, even harder, but you will eventually get to this point...Laugh about it. When did in a million years think that I would have to have surgery to fix my apparently broken vagina and laugh about it? Never, and it sure as hell wasn't the day of my HSG!!! But it's happening, and I'm over the mourning stage of my broken hardware. The only thing that I can do now is bring awareness, and hopefully laughter, or at least smiles to people dealing with this god awful infertility, and hold on to some hope and faith.
I'm in the process of starting a Infertility Support Group for my State. I've gotten in touch with a really cool chick who's got one going now. In our brief conversation on the phone, She said the size varies from week to week between 3-9 peeps. Soooo, I'm gonna go next week and check it out. Maybe we can do some sort of a merge at some point. If anyone in the Rhode Island Area is interested, email me at (to avoid nasty spammers I'll spell it out): kauffmanlauren14 AT gmail DOT com. They meet on the Last Wednesday of every month at her work from 6-8, and it's a peer to peer support group.
Hope to see some of you there!!!
I have enjoyed catching up on your blog. Best wishes to you and your hubs!!!
ReplyDeleteWow! You have made some great progression. I am so made at my body that I can't stand it. : ) It's wonderful about starting the group. That will be wonderful for you.
ReplyDeleteI think starting a group is really awesome! I am kind of half in and half out of the closet with the infertility stuff. A lot of people in my life know...but a lot dont know. I guess the reason I'm not open with it on FB or to everybody is that I dont want them feeling sorry for me and I dont want them talking behind my back. I also dont want people to think that that is all that I am. I live in a small town and word spreads quick. I would love to have pictures of me and my hub on my blog but I dont want my whole town finding out and I also want to be able to talk openly about all aspects of my life. I think it is great what you are doing. That takes a lot of courage!
ReplyDeleteYay Lauren! Good for you!
ReplyDeleteYeah I remember in the beginning it was so hard for me to admit even to myself that I had a problem, let alone to other people. It felt so shameful, and I worried about people judging me... what kind of life am I living that I can't get preggo??
Its easier now that I'm "out" and can talk about it. We even joke in the TTC Happy Hour, when we introduce ourselves... like in AA... "Hi, I'm Kate, and I'm an Infertile" (Hi Kate).
Great post chickie! Good luck with your group.